Immortality

It's too thick. It's insubstantial, but it's far to thick. I can't get through this time. I've been good in the past. I've been so good at pushing it back. There was always some point of reference. Not this time. The existential break down. Silences are too loud. Darkness too bright. Button it up again. It's got to wash over. It alwas does. It's just going to be harder this time. This time there's no purchase. This time it's just me. I can't afford to wait for anyone else. I've got to read back a few hundred pages to remember lessons learned past. This one is just me. This one is going to have white knuckles. The answer is "no."